In John's account of the crucifixion, the Saviour's solitude on the cross is striking. The evangelist does not mention the apostles standing at a distance; indeed, he describes nothing except the cross itself and what happens at its foot, perhaps because he himself was standing there at the time (vv. 25–27; many commentators believe that when John mentions the unnamed disciple, he is speaking of himself). But the apostle also says nothing about the conversion of one of the robbers crucified with Jesus or about the Saviour's words mentioned by the other evangelists. Judging by John's testimony, Jesus uttered only two words on the cross: “I thirst!” (v. 28) and “It is finished!” (v. 30). Before that, in two short phrases, He entrusted His Mother and the disciple standing by the cross, probably John himself, to each other (vv. 26–27). Apparently, John singles out in the Saviour's words only what concerns him personally and what seems to him most important. It appears that in these two words of Jesus the evangelist sees the meaning of everything that is happening.

The picture described by John was probably not merely a memory of the events at the cross, but the fruit of many years of reflection upon them. For the evangelist, it seems, “It is finished!” meant more than the mere fact that the Saviour had completed His earthly mission, although when standing at the cross the apostle probably had to understand His words in precisely that way. But later, after encountering the Risen One and receiving the revelation he described in the Book of the same name, John apparently understood that Jesus was also speaking of the end of history, of that end of time for which many were waiting and which very few noticed. John does not mention the signs described by the other evangelists: the storm that turned day into night, the earthquake, or the torn veil of the Temple. For him everything was contained in one word, “It is finished!”, spoken by Jesus at the moment of His death on the cross.

But there was something else that struck the apostle. Jesus was dying on the cross like the most ordinary human being. The One Who, during His earthly ministry, could feed thousands with a few loaves suffered from thirst, from the same ordinary thirst that anyone in His place would have experienced, and could do nothing about it. He could do nothing not because He had ceased to be the One He was born among people to be, but because an ordinary human death was also part of His earthly ministry, just as much as the miracles and manifestations of the Kingdom that were impossible for anyone else in the world.

John does not mention the mocking calls addressed to Jesus to come down from the cross, of which the other evangelists testify. Perhaps he did not hear them, for of all the apostles only he was so close to the crucified Teacher, and it is quite possible that he had no attention to spare for the crowd standing at some distance. But he undoubtedly understood the main thing: everything that was happening became possible only through the free will of the Saviour of the world, Who consented to it all for the sake of those He wished to save. Such was the price of salvation and the price of the Kingdom.

Relationships with Jesus can be very different for different people. Joseph of Arimathea and Nicodemus had theirs too. Their own. Unlike any others. These people were not apostles; most likely they did not even consider themselves disciples of Jesus. But they came in order to perform the burial rite. It would seem not so much, but none of the closest disciples did this. Almost all of them scattered. And everyone was sure that everything was over.

It is hard to blame them: all of them were sincere; all acted as their own understanding of the situation prompted them. And it turned out that all of them, except perhaps Peter and John, were bound to the Teacher first of all by the work. By a prospect. By the great future awaiting them beside this Man. And when it turned out that there was no such future, they decided that they were no longer needed by Him. And He by them? Needed, of course, but He Himself had decided to renounce everything. So how could they help Him?

Only for a few did relationships with Him prove to be something unconditional and valuable in itself. Yes, of course, for Peter and probably for John; otherwise he would not have been at the cross. And for the women who stood there too, at that same cross. And now also, who would have thought it, for Nicodemus and Joseph. After all, they had communicated with Him least of all. They knew Him less than the others.

But sometimes it happens: a meeting occurs in life, perhaps the only one, such as will never be repeated, and it remains forever with the person who experienced it. And it fully or largely determines all his subsequent life. And no one except those two who met each other knows about the meeting. And perhaps one will never again see the one, or the One, who overturned the whole life. But the life has already been overturned. It is already different, and the former one is no more. And the relationship with the One who overturned it remains for one's whole life. And it no longer matters what the One who overturned the life managed to do and what He did not. The main thing, after all, He has already done. That is why the relationship with Him will remain forever.

And even death, well, in our world everyone dies... Even death will not destroy these relationships. Because they belong to the Kingdom. And everything connected with them does too. And there nothing is forgotten and nothing disappears without a trace. And everything is absolutely important and absolutely precious.

The crucifixion and death of Jesus are not simply a moment in His biography, and therefore the description of this event is not simply one of the stories about His life. It is testimony. The evangelist points several times to the witnesses of the execution: the beloved disciple, Mary, the other women, those who "testified," whose "testimony is true." John wants to bring us to the place of the crucifixion so that we too may stand with him at the cross, confirming the truthfulness of his account to the other disciples.

Why is this testimony needed, why the quotations from the Law and the prophets? Do we really doubt that a Man who lived two thousand years ago died? Of course not. That means John's testimony is not testimony about death, but testimony about a victory that has been accomplished...